I was wishing i could know what were you thinking

quater past 2 im just done showering. Im still arguing with him, which i keep admit it was my fault but then he keep memajal marah and bla bla bla. i know you would read this but sayang, im really sorry? im feeling so sunyi and alone while you're not around /:
i didnt reply his last message i dont know what to say anymore. and now he's off to kerja, later balik around 6. Friday always HATE ME lastweek pun marah jua, this week pun sama jua. gaaaah -.-' This Evening seems so quite, and boring day TOO! Im downloading Let Go by Neyo. Pretty songs indeed The lyrics was fine. The clock on this screen shows its 3:22, Balqis promised me ia balik around 4. so yeah, basically i was waiting for her to reached home. aku meliat siap kah inda the so call project yang di buat nya ani. This 3rd daughter of mom ah, selalu beulah. makin BESAR sudah but still jua macam apa. I was mad at her kemarin, pasal she dont wanna attend the ugama school. I asked anil where's Balqis then ia cakap she's inside the room. and i was like, eh gila jua? Hanger's on my hand and i keep shouting at her saying this and that. Mom keep asking me to stop, and i said eh kan di biarkan kali inda ugama? She didnt answer me and left the room.
i ignore her and she's went to umi tini's place. Just this morning she talk to me.

Balqis : ka, aku kan ke library.
Me : behapa? sama?
Balqis : sama atul, buat project.
Me : bukan kan bedating dating!
Balqis : eh apa pulang. out jua kau
Balqis : kaka inda ke library kah?

i ignore her and sambung tiduuuur. and now, the clock was ticking. and im waiting