360 days with love! =)

i am awake by the alarm clock this morning. and hey, rise & shine sayang! :) i had breakfast with along, talking about this and that as early as 8am. lol.. WELL....... HEY! :D i finally managed to update my blog during this dull monday. iv been missing my baby! *deepsigh. i am phoneless right now. i left my everything at his house.. and i left with nothing. Its almost the end of December, and guess what? i dont even plan anything for my new year neither do my baby. Bungsu Ewan's wedding on this 1st January. siuk ah semua berkawinan sudah. heheh. Dull eh updates ku ah. sory

Now, the whole world has no clue what to do with us.

Selamat Hari Raya Aidil Adha to all muslims! :)

I hate blocked nose. it kept me awake early in the morning. i didnt sleep well this past few weeks. jiwa merana but yet i still can smile tho its hurting inside. Went to the beach yesterday evening, and we had so much fun. I cant stop laughing! I cant wait to finished my O's and looked for part time job. I really need fine a way to earn for myself. I owe alot to my parents especially to my father & mother. Had Combined Science I for tomorrow's exam. & I still didnt had any plan where to go after exam. Oh Ya. I Cant wait for netball this week! Its gonna be fun!! :DD

You Know What I Love Most About us?

i love how comfortable we are with each other.
i love how endlessly we make fun of each other.
but never take the teasing to heart.
I absolutely adore how when I turn away from you
When We are fighting, You try to stay mad then you run after me.
I love the look in your eyes When we kissed.
Or how you stay up to watch me sleep and write in my dairy how adorable i look when im sleeping.
I love how i can call you anytime when I need someone.
and somehow you never fail to make me laugh.
Agreed with everything I said, Even actually i was totally wrong about it.
Finally you just smile, and tell me how much you Love me.
We had silly fights, stupid arguements and Fucked Up Jokes
but lastly we end up laughing and crying.
I Love when we Had Monkey & Banana Tease. You so look like a real bad monkey!
I love The moment we shared our stories just to fall asleep.
I Love how much You need me as I Need you.
And Most of all, I Love how you Loved me.

Every relationship has its problems. But what makes it perfect is if you still wanna be together, when things really suck.

Hello October! :) Yes, Happy Belated 18th Birthday to myself. Lol. Im just finished with my dinner and gotta have my shower soon! Its Moanday. Just get back from Bandar kemarin, attending Farid's brother wedding at Jame Asr'
I didnt get enough sleep this lately but no matter how late i stay during the night, for sure i end up waking up early in the morning! :( boring!! inda pandai bangun akhir eh. shishishish. BM exam today went well, & I was shocked pasal meja ku dapan sekali. Im S.L.E.E.P.Y berabis during the exam. i finished 30mins earlier. Saw Fahmi belum sempat siapkan the paper and i wonder why? sikit jua saja yang kan di buat. (A) I wait 15mins for Umi to fetch me. Waited infront of the school and ugh. LAPAR!! nyeh.

I am mad with this Farid guy. He's a bit annoying at times! YES, YOU ARE.
I helped umi in the kitchen just naw, i learn to cook. Obviously! <3 I was plannin to skip my dinner but i just cant refused the smell of the chikaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaan! I cooked sayur too. (A) Oh its already 10:08 no wonder im sleepy. huehuehue. Gotta stop for now.
x

24th October 2010.

Congrats On Your wedding, Fareezan & Gimah!! :)

Such a month. ♥

29th Sepetmber 2010
Damia' is celebrating her birthday. Happy birthday, Sweety!

10th October 2010
Bungsu Ewan, soon engaged to Anty Rose. Whee! Nada lagi anak bungsu nini. Lol

23rd September 2010
Gemma finally officialy engaged to her boyfriend, Fareezan. Farid's Brother :) Congrats darling. May Allah bless both of you.

September.

Mom annoyed me this morning, and yes its tuesday morning. i woke up early. As always. Balqis is still sleeping while my little baby boy appy tidur seria arah umi. Luckily its Tuesday and its public holiday. The replacement of Hari Guru public holiday! :) By that, dapat jua rehat this week. Iv been a crazy week & days lately. I even drowning in my sastera notes lastnight :( Even geography. Wish we could go back to January so that we dont have to rushed everything to revise. Baby, make sure we gonna have a long vacation after this crazy weeks! Bungsu & I just done editing his engagement invitation card on facebook, and tag it to the families. aww. everyone is getting engaged! HEHEHE. i am goin to have my shower in a minutes then. Be back soon!

I LOVE YOU BABY!

I guess its not too late to greet you people.. Selamat Hari Raya! (: Its been a _____ since my last update. Been busy (as always, my only excuses) and im lazy too. but then naw, i missed blogging. I dont know if ever anyone is visitng my page but if ure here, HEY! I dont remember hari ani raya ke berapa sudah. it doesnt feel like raya anymore! :( Okay im glad everything is fine, and im still breathing in the world today. and so everyone.. Mom & Step dad still the "newly weds" and the others, just okay. I bet..

School was alright, i get used to be alone. Since im no longer friends with "her"

things that happend at school today.

• I was totally full and almost fall asleep during BM class. Got 76 for my qualifying paper. Cg Apandi was like, "Eh, Nazzatul.. Apa khabar? Iski cg meliat kau harini" and i asnwer him, "baik.. alhamdulilah.." and i smile. lol
• We were talking to our classmate pasal ia pandai buat rumah. So i tell him how my dream house look like. Funny, i kept explaining cemana rumah ku mau tapi sekolah pun belum habis.
• All the boys get excited when we start our reproduction topic today. and it kinda anoyyed me tho.. macam apakan, inda payah iski.
• I sit alone by myself at one bench during combined sciene. isnt it so great? Haikal & Haziq kept bothering me.
• Had maths class with Sir Meze and were doing the past year paper, its 12 and i started to felt hungry! :(
• Have to wait until 12:45 for umi to fetch us.
• Saw this year 7 boy who make me smile.. sudah tah lampuh, macam hagemaru wah. ada bata makanan lagi tu.. pipi nya merah and belari sana sni.. calii. and cute too! lol.
• && I.HATE.SEEING.THE.SCHOOL.LOVEBIRDS!! cubatah jangan becinta di kelas, bising kaliiii. kan bekelaie tah lagi jealous lah apa lah. annoying wah!!

2010, Here we are.

Selamat Hari Raya Maaf Zahir & Batin!! :)

Sasha & Farid's Family.

THURSDAY, please be easy? ):

July, 21st.
I was awake in the middle of the night, and its 3. TV was on and i fall back again to my sleep. and the alarm ring, clock shows 5.55 =) Alhamdulilah, i lived in the world today. Thanks Allah.
I woke up lazily and end up showering for 15 mins. School's uniform on and i thought to myself. "This is my lastyear of wearing Perdana Wazir's uniform"
Having breakfast soon and off to school.

-SCHOOL-
7 until 12.30
Everything went well. Even Maths class.
Went home and Had lunch, Off to school again for Malay Oral.
Thinks im gonna fail the oral /; sigh sigh sigh.
im heading home soon after done with my oral, saw the two school lovebirds. ugh.
Baby's message me, hes home for lunch.

aww. missed you very bad. I didnt have my afternoon nap since its getting late. i dont wanna end up tidur like hour saja, thats bad. and awful too! :(

While now, im done revising Geography for hour and gotta surf this internet for hour jua. Lets make it fair enough, yes? HEHEH. so yeah, need to shower soon and off to bed.
THURSDAY, please be easy? ):

(:

i fake a smile so he wont see..

Thanks Allah.

I praise Allah for sending me you my love
You found me home and sail with me
And I`m here with you
Now let me let you know
You`ve opened my heart
I was always thinking that love was wrong
But everything was changed when you came along
And theres a couple words I want to say

For the rest of my life
I`ll be with you
I`ll stay by your side honest and true
Till the end of my time
I`ll be loving you. loving you
For the rest of my life
Thru days and night
I`ll thank Allah for open my eyes
Now and forever I I`ll be there for you

I know that deep in my heart
I feel so blessed when I think of you
And I ask Allah to bless all we do
You`re my wife and my friend and my strength
And I pray we`re together eternally
Now I find myself so strong
Everything changed when you came along
And theres a couple word I want to say

For the rest of my life
I`ll be with you
I`ll stay by your side honest and true
Till the end of my time
I`ll be loving you. loving you
For the rest of my life
Thru days and night
I`ll thank Allah for open my eyes
Now and forever I I`ll be there for you

I know that deep in my heart now that you`re here
Infront of me I strongly feel love
And I have no doubt
And I`m singing loud that I`ll love you eternally

For the rest of my life
I`ll be with you
I`ll stay by your side honest and true
Till the end of my time
I`ll be loving you.loving you
For the rest of my life
Thru days and night
I`ll thank Allah for open my eyes
Now and forever I I`ll be there for you

x

complicated is a one word.

This is life.
People judge me, they talk about me. They dislikes me, and somehow i felt i ever did something wrong. I know who i am and you should know how much i tried.
I don't talk much to people i just knew, i gave bad expression too.
i make face when i'm mad.
well again you should know how much i tried.
i cant just ignore you people, i cant.
i cant stand, and i don't want to argue this matter with my boyfriend.
i loved him, forever always am.
i'm sorry if i ever hurt your feelings.

If Only I Could tell you.

Wednesday, ugh :( Basically i didnt attend school's today. Not feeling well and i think sorethroat is coming to me :( :( payah kan menelan. hish.

i woke up early today, as usuall. end up having breakfast with umi and granny. trying to had my sleep back but neah, mata ani kenapa kah.
okay school yesterday was um. entah! lol. i got 10 for my oral, whee!
*YAWN. should be having mi shower right now cause Reed is on his way to fetch me but i end up blogging to kill the time. Mom asked to bring Balqis & Apply along since this week arah Nini tungku ada function i think. (:
planned to had a sleepover at my baby's. i missed her so much & cant wait to meet her.
<3>

hold me tight.

Bonkers!

im sleepy! im sleepy! /:
i need sleep. migard! i only sleep for hours today. Watched the final world cup and yes, SPAIN! lol.
Had a cup of coffee with Reed before he's heading home. SWEET isnt it?
Shower soon and im ready for school. English qualifying exam was today and im effing L.A.T.E ! arrived school at 7:40 and exam is at 8.
English paper 1 went very well. paper 2 kinda -.-'
Finished the exam at 11.30 and went home.
okay. SLEEP.

1:41PM.
Reed's wake up call! GAAAAAAAAH.
pengacau urang tidur. ganya nyuruh lunch /:
until then i dont have my sleep lagi. menyamal mata ku sudahh..
I did tried to catch some sleep tapi entah inda jua dapat. HEH
okay i stopped here.

i believe.

i believe forever exist whenever i around him (:

& i wonder why.

i should be sleeping by now but i decide to blogging.
I survived Wednesday, and Hello coming Thursday.
I am becoming a lazy one nowadays. I knew it because i started to set my alarm at 6 instead of 5.30 /: aww. I even snooze it for 5 mins and i may be late for school.
Stephanie & I was asked to stay out of the hall cause we are late today.
HEHEHE. luckily no punishment. My Art went well, and English Oral went well too.
We left the art room early and had our break. Combined Science class and I felt SLEEPY when Sir Yong Min Xiang started to turn off the lamp for slideshows. GAAARD.
Went home soon after Maths class and i dont sleep. The house was like a zoo. Mom's was here! (:
but too bad she have to balik bandar, again!
Funny when Balqis, Appy & I was sitting outside the house, basically at the verandah.
this one guy melintas jalan and he's acting weird. Appy told me ia inda sintar. (sorry for my words) at first i couldnt believe it until Appy salute him. HAHAH, he salute back and stand very still. macam polis wah -.-' eh entah eh ada saja. LOL.
okay its almost late, 10.32 consider late is it? :b
Gonna have general assembly besok and Geo class!
Cant wait to meet my boyfriend, soon.
i missed you sayang & yes. thats it, i missed you

Everything's in life is unfair

some people can be so annoying at a time. i know right (: im done with my shower and all stuff. i skip dinner cus i dont know. i dont feel like eating either. i cant stop thinking about loosing some weight. for my own sake. LOL.
i dont know what is waking me up early in the morning. so yes i end up with waking up at 6.. crazy.
i had my breakfast while he's working.
i dont know why i still feel so lonely.
maybe its because our relationship distance..
or i dont know.
i have to be strong, i know (:
i missed my homegirls, but they cant make up for this sunday.
sigh.

Tomorrow's 3rd. Its already July, 1 month left for Qualifying exam.
i wishedi had a time machine. HIHIHIHI
Saturday, Please be easy. and i cant wait for eclipse. i wanna watch it soon, like very soon? Edward Cullen must be missing me badly.
ADOLF HITLER, i envy him. been doin research on The Rise & Fall oh his time.
Man, he really a strong guy with politics on his mind.
i think im goin to sleep early tonight due to my ngantuk-ness. i shut off my phone for some reason.
yeah. I think we should be fair to each other. Everything's in life is unfair, true fact.
but no matter what happend, im gonna hold on to this for so long and so tight cus im afraid this great things wont happend twice.
should be off to bed now, think im sleep.

June is smiling at me.

a new day has start..
25th June, i just restored all my post and start to blogging again. i missed blogging, shoulda admit that. (:
Farid is celebrating his 20th Birthday this 27th. Someone is getting old, as in very old.. didnt see him for few days and hoping to see him very soon. School, it was just so damn fine. Exam paper were returned, and aaah. too many ups and downs..
i survived yesterday but yet its not a good day. Something was so distracting my mind and hell, i cant even concentrate. Lastly i decide to went home and have my sleep. yeah, that's it.

Kill the time.

A rough day, yeah it is. I walk to 5B class slowly, while carrying my Puma school bag. The boys have eyes on me, i know. The school bell rang, everyone's gone to the School hall. Perdana Wazir Secondary School is having a promotion for a free hair cut, specially for the boys. (: Stephanie & I walked to the Science Lab, studying Physics. I sitted at Hakim's bench. The very front row, as he was going home due to the new hair that he's having. I cant concentrate while sitting with Crazy Stephanie. Biology for today, and Relief Teacher for Geography is next. I cutted the last colour for my Art, and that's it. Balqis went to my classroom, to gave me the nasi that i asked her to buy for me. I didnt finished it, and just throwed it away. Sastera and English for 6.7.8.9 Hmm..

Finally i had fun just during English Class. I got 12 for my speech work ): Haziq's gone crazy inside the class. and im so annoyed with him. Wasnt aware, its already 12 :30, well. Lets go home! I didnt have lunch, im not feeling hungry. I sleep until 3. Anil kept knocking the door, telling me Appy dont wanna attend the Ugama School. I was mad at him, and he said he's pening. I Asked him to sleep next to me, and locked the door. Finally i fall asleep, just for a moment. I feel like missing something.. Boyfriend.

x

Whizzer!

Hey, im back :) hehe. As i said, i promise to update. Lol! And hi Wednesday! I was excited when i woke up today, cus i had english class with Miss Madeleine early morning! Haha. Like, apakan :D Balqis woke me up, and tell me its already 6 in the morning. I messaged my boyfriend and soon having my shower. A cup of coffee and Bread for breakfast. We arrived at school sharp at 7.O5! Sir Meze entered the class and started to say this and that. At last he told us there's no cca! I smile widely and Nisaah was wondering why. Malas wah kan CCA plus im not wearing PE attire! Relief teacher come in soon Sir Meze Left the classroom. Too bad, Nada English ): ): Tick Tock Tick Tock, The bells ring and its 8 o'clock. 5A, 5B, 5C & 5R was asked to go to the school hall for having motivational talk on "How to handle STRESS" blaaaaaaah. The talks was totally crazy. The school hall was damn hot, ada kipas pun inda terasa. Huehuehue >.<>. 4 of us was excited to get out of the hall. Lol. At last, sharp at 10! We're having breaktime. Off to canteen. Ruby's was in 9 Kekwa. She smile to me and cakap im 'sombong' which im not. Like, we're been bestfriend since we were form 1 tapi now inda lagi rapat. Hee :DD Teacher Heyati, entered the class for period 6 & 7 for geography. She gave us our exam paper. My heart beats faster, i know im gonna failed the test with Low marks ): I sitted quietly at my table, and Soon Asri gave me the paper. 26/100? HAHAHA. not bad for my first test on Geography! I wasnt expecting it at all. And what's more funny, My other friend got low-er marks than me! Tu si stephanie ah! Hahaha. Heading to Sastera room sharp at 11.30, lagitiaaaa. -.-' macam semua orang sleepy. Way to bored, and i took Stephanie punya Sastera book, Hikayat Awang Kamaruddin exercise book. She wasnt aware that her book is with me, i have my marker pen that Reed gave me which is so useful! Inda dapat padam hantap. Haha, at the front of her book, i wrote. "Hikayat Awang Kamarul" HAHAHAHAHA. and her cermin diri book, i wrote. "Cermin Sakit Si Jambol" Cali wah! HAHAHA. Teacher Zatul was annoyed by me and Stephanie. Kami ketawa saja. Hahahahaha, talur tu si step. I kept lookin on my new Gucci watch that my i asked my boyfriend to bought for me & i cant wait to go huum. Wewewewe. Reached huum soon and talk with Reed on the phone. Had my shower and terikah baju ugama Balqis & Appy. At last, Balqis was attendind the ugama school. Ia makin pemalas hantap. I told her, mesti sekolah. If 1 day inda sekolah, then 2 days nada mobile phone. Imma took her 6500 kalau inda mendengar cakap. Eseh. Finally sekolah jua ia, and appy pun sekolah dengan bahagia nya i end up with sleeping all day long, feeling blissful when im awake. A very awesome nap it is! Nyee. AND NOW, its 7pm. Reed havent messaged me, so that's mean ia belum sampai rumah. Imma off to school stuff, dinner and terikah baju, again! :)

5th May 2010.

Hello. Sorry for the lack updates /: aah. Still in lazy mode, school stuff and those homeworks keeps me busy. I didnt attend the school today, and its 5th April. Happy Birthday to Faiq, Gimah & Muzzakir! Iv been spending the weekend with Reed, as usuall. He fetch me at Aunty Nolly's place, off to Tungku for Faiq's Birthday celebration. Tapi too bad, nada birthday cake. :p Reed & I bought Gucci Handbag for his mother kemarin. The mother complain about the bag besar. LOL. if besar, ofcourse im the one who choose it. I Adore big handbag, SO SO IRRESISTBLE!
Right from tungku, we attend Delima's engagement day. HEHE. congrats =)! decided to went home and tukar baju, off to Gadong to look for Reed's punya baju. Netcom annual dinner this 10th May. & the dress code is HAWAIIAN! haha. Reed punya beachwear is cute! THANKS sayang for the dress that you bought for me. WHEE! so at last, Reed end up with buying Bob Marley Tee's. Nah, luan pemilih. sama jua yang simple, but it looks good! I felt hungry when we reached Giant. *Mau Spaghetti & Burger :O and YAAAY. had fast food at Jolibee, before we heading to belait. Reed hantar balik, promised mom balik around 8 ): and now, My sayang kerja. imma have art class this 2. Luckily sampai pukul 3 jea. I guess that's all for now. will update soon, i think.
Imma Hit the kitchaaaaaaan, im damnly hungreeeyh!

Dear Dairy..

His Baby ;)

Im F________. HEH

School's out, SCREAM & SHOUT! ;DD

Happy Holiday! :)

and its friday. i woke up early cus i slept early lastnight. i was thinkin what to do and i had s____ break in the morning. im hungry either. i message Reed soon im awake and he's off to work. I decided to cuci our baju like ZILLIONS. Ngalih Much. While Jemur the baju, yknow jiran sebelah ani pervert. Ia balik2 liat, even nini say so. CHEH. tua sudah pun mau kambang. siapa jua beguna. LOL. Luckily im done with the baju thingy around 10. Im sweating, Recieved Reed's fowarding Aunty Nolly message. Says she's picking us up. I Suddenly ran to Nini's room. We both Belum mandi, and Balqis too. We rushed and had shower, Maklong's arrived with her Black Sorento and Honking twice! HEHEE. We had our breakfast at KDM Kuala Belait. I ate Chicken Rice and im full. BURP! We went home, and i sip 2 pills of the ubat. I was still thinkin what to do during this school holiday. We're off to Bandar besok, i think. Imma Be with Reed, Yes Yes? I Really Missed you, Please see me S.o.o.n !

please dont grow up too fast.

BEFORE

AFTER

That's it :)) No Longer jadi anak kecil ni adik ku. LOL

Don't Be Sad :]

i miss you, Really do :)
& its 9:29, wednesday night. 1 day left for the school holiday. im not gonna attend the school besok, sorry friends! i havent had my shower, just light food at wywy tadi. im still full, i think. Reed, again fall asleep right after our last message. i dont know either he's having shower or inda. i text him when i reached home but i dont get any sign so yeah. I GETTIT. nevermind, i know he is tired. No worries, il be good. :)))))))
im gonna off to bed after the Bond's movie. I have to woke up early besok due dengani my little brother, Appy bersunat. YAYY, no more mommy's little boy ni. sama tah ni basarnya macam abang parid *kirai :p i forgot to bring my pins and also the scarf. HEHEHE. i have my tudong here pulang. Im so clumsy and i missed every little thing. LOL & I tweet zer's at twitter, saying PakLong with MakLong missed her and she reply with, OHH. SURE? hekhek. message with mom tadi, and she will be here besok right after babah kerja, katanya. i expect that she would come tonight tapi entah. WE MISSED YOU MOM! /: Balqis wasnt here, she rather stayed at Granny's. Dont know what she's up to. I wear long skirt tadi with your Barracudas t-shirt sayang. Didnt expect that MakLong kan bawa makan. Cali, when i rarely pakai the skirt bejalan. i looked way to simple and macam org gur___. :DD but thanks to the handbag, for making me looked elegance! HAHAHA. Thanks Love, for the pretty handbag.
&i guess im signin out now. UPDATEsoon, thankyou!

17th March, TWEEDLEDEE! :))

i didnt attend the school today, i started the school holiday 2 days earlier! :) Reed is off to work, and having his lunch now. Will be back at 6, i guess. I havent had lunch yet, err. entah, malas. Appy soon to chop off his small bird. YAAY! basar sudah ia ni, LOL. i woke up today and realised its 9 and i dont recieved his message. I Call him up and aww. Another blissful morning to hear his voice. I Tweet Phat at twitter and changed the name too. I sort off moved to twitter sudah, Facebook getting lame-er. Decided to deactivate it pulang but neah. Its not my account, its Reed's :] Balqis still havent got her ass home from school. think im gonna off to sleep after this pasal boring ah, so jobless. i miss you, and please see me soon. YES LAV?

My Cancer Love

TWITTER was fun, yes it is :) yay. and hey, readers. aww. i cant sleep so yeah, up to blogging. Reed is off to sleep sudah due to his ngalihness. Talk to him on the phone for 15 mins tadi. Call him up soon around 6. and hey sayang, i really miss you. i didnt attend the school today, i know. pemalas.. heh. i cant wait to start the holiday, and maybe for some sleepovers. *kirai. hekhek. i woke up early banar. like always, and gaah. very jobless and that's great. I decided to check my friendster account. Which is way to bangas. Lol. Whee, i read all the comments and those stuff. I miss friendster :p off to them little kiddo schools to fetch aiman, si anak gajah. and went to liat the netball match, lagitia boring. I reached home around 4 and having mi nap. Wall-ing with Jush, Zatte and gimah on facebook. Like, im friggin bored. I try to shut my eyes but ugh. These eyes wanted to stay awake bah. And so on, talk to him, tweet Nisa, Cici and Zer's at twitter. Gad, internet is just a part of life sudah. No offence sayang, u still on my top list. ♥ i dont think im gonna attend the school jua besok. Mau ambil mc eh, kena bagi surat cinta karang from sir meze. HEHE. Kinda miss mom, Reed met her yesterday and i bet kamu inda mengumpat me, yes? LOL. Zattee is askin me to sleeover at her place this school holiday, hopefuly sayang suruh. please? nyehehe.
Kay Iskandar is adding me up on facebook. Saying i looked familiar to her but i dont even know her. Reed said the same thing too, so sorry. No strangers on my list, thank you. And im bouncing off now, gotta off to bed. My sayang would be so mad if he knows i stay awake ahir ahir when he's asleep. i really miss u, please see me soon! x

is looking foward to 2012.

in 2 years coming, we plan to get engage :)

HAHA :DD

Reed and I watched Alice in wonderland on sunday and the movie was siuk. ((:

kan sayang? HEHEHE.

sayang, text me soon.

• Me : Anty, where u at? anty di rumah kah? farid balik sudah? aku kan call kajap. kan cakap sama iaa. Hp nya tutup ah, lowbatt.
• Reed's Mom :Anty d kdai lai, trus kn ambil apik d gdong...
• Me : bah, ok. nda apa. karang kalau kita dirumah sudah bagitaukan farid ah. aku kan cakap sama ia pasal besuk.. okay? thank you anty =))
• Reed's Mom : K.

i look for u bah. please text me soon ure reading this. LOve you!

finally..

sudah punya 1 keluarga, (:

Nazzatul Nadira @ Natasha, Nazifi, Nur Balqis & Nurul Nabella.

on the 26th Februaury 2010.

Congrats to mom, and happy life. yes?

credit to hanafi salam.

It started when we were younger and you were mine.

im awake ((: whee. another random friday and i didnt go anywhere. just here, maklong's crib. i woke kinda early today due to terikah my little not so little brother appy punya baju. umi was here sudah and we belum bangun at all. i terikah his baju and he got mengaji class today. i tried to have my sleep back right after i terikah his baju but neah. tak dapat /: maklong asked bella and me to masak burger as the stuff prepared sudah. my sister kept saying eh karang saja masak bah. but i dont wan to pasal aku lapar sudah. aww! end up with masak burger and belle forgeot to masak the roti and she even forgot to mention to me supaya tarus mayonise so thats not even my fault :p maklong cakap. 'eh iatah burger anak dara ne' LOL. i was over too, aku goring the daging extra 2. which actualy the roti 8 saja. so yeah, belle and me had our burger morning with extra daging. DOUBLE CHESSE BURGER WAH! haha u mau sayang me buatkan untuk u? bah nanti tah ah. i know u want it so bad, yes yes? :DD

i have to jemur our baju right after i kenyang and aah. BURP! the jiran was kept looking at me. i dont know why, maybe because im not using b__? HAHAH. i havent had my shower kaliah plus im just awake! :pp i decided to sleep right after with the jemur thingy pasal ngantuk ah. terer kaliah aku jemur baju pukul 12. matahari pun senyum meliat aku, sekali i winked! ;) i watched 3 hari untuk selamanya through you-tube. Reed kept saying about the cerita dulu and until now, barutah aku ingat. i save the link at my phone and macam boring jua kan, i just watched tilpart 5. overall ada 10 part pulang so yeah, to entertain myself i watch hagemaru lagi arah youtube, then cerita mr.bean cartoon lagi. then liat trailer Titanic 2. Mahirah tell me about that, tapi at first i dont kinda believe her yang ada titanic 2 sekali aww. banar jua tu! haha. gila eh, was like nonsense jua tu the cerita. si jack wah masih muda and aah, crazy. ia jadi buruan saintis pasal he managed to masih hidup and jadi frozen man. kesian pasal he cant accept the fact yang si Rose sudah mati. eh entah eh, macam cali jua. inda masuk akal wah cerita ah. grenti ia pakai akal doremon! LOl.

lastly, i fall asleep while you-tubing. ahh, Life's good. Thanks sayang for this E63, u make my life easier :p i dreamt about you tadi, entah pasal we were on the phone and as usualy, i was mengusut over something and u inda layan. cali wah, jiwang amat the mimpi. something awake's me and when i opened my eyes aku dengar bunyi hujan dii luar. and AAAAAAAAAAH, BAJU KE BEJAMUR KALIIII? hahhahaha. i was like laju bangun dari katil and terus ambil bakul, saw sister belle was infront of the pc and i was mad at her saying, ehh ka inda kau bangunkan aku kah? baju wah di luar! hahha. baru jua bangun tidur then marah lagi tu. She answer me with, ''eh sudah kaliah ku bangkit, tu dalam tumbledrier ah. haha, smile and i walk balik ke bilik. decided kan tidur balik but ah, malas ku jua. Appy asked me to cooked mee goreng, he's hungry and i did. he's so demanding, like mau lagi goreng telur. He totally remind me of his father (:

i asked him to wash the dishes right after we done eating and maklong tegur.

'eh si appy kau suruh cuci piring?' and i said, awule. kali ia cakap,

"makin tia lagi macam aww"

HAHAH.

i had my shower after kenyang and whee. im feeling effin fresh, sweet smell and getting cuter with your boxer on sayang. LOL i took out all the baju from the machine and terus lipat. again, asked appy to lipat jua. whee! i realised banyak our panties, mostly girls punya and his panty around 3 to 4 saja :p ada lagi yang balqis punya barbie and appy punya mr.bean! HAHAH. im goin home after maghrib and had maths test for besok. NO WORRIES, i wont study. belajar pun, inda jua pandai.

i got problem with number, VERY.

done and im out, Lav.

i wish there's an undo button in my life.

Reed was mad at me pasal my classmate. and that's absurd. He started to say this and that, not to forget the "selfish" word. Like, entah eh. sudah tah diri nya nada phone then jarang lagi contact apa. sekali now kan marah marah. sasak ku wah. damn it, like inda jua payah cematu arah public. he kept saying that aku inda pandai paham kan ia, sekali kenapa tah relation ani sampai bertahun bilanya aku inda paham ia? u tell me. aaaaaaaaah, crazy.

i dont even know why. what's up with me this lately. i get mad easily.
okay. i LIE. i know what's up with myself. i turn out to be a psycho when im over missing him.
DAMN IT. macam kanak kanak jua eh cemani, do i have to act this way? GOD. i cant wait to grew up. im stuck in my own world. (see, i started to talk crap) i think im gonna have the meds, and i wanna sleep all night. im too tired of everything. Life threated me so bad. (Again) im tired of typing and i dont know what to say. but, i wanna talk and spill this out. im so alone, like nada dangan. crazy crazy crazy. i didnt have any bestfriends at my school. ))): Geography exam really does gave me earthquake. inda pandai wah! foffffffffffffffffffff. eh entah eh, kan marah saja pulang.

i better done with this shiz. i wanna sleep. i dont want to have my dinner. nada urang peduli either.

i hate this weird feeling.

Sasha Farid

And i hate when you adding or accepting people i dont like,same like you. Right? Ingatnya cali kali. Saandi.

9 minutes ago ·

Sasha Farid

they are my classmates wah tu. heh

8 minutes ago ·

Sasha Farid

Sekali? Tebuat me? Sama pun jua tatap jua diri inda suka. So now you can do whatever i dislike and i cant? What a selfish. Huh!

5 minutes ago ·

Sasha Farid

bah inda jua payah cakap pasal ani di sini. inda public kali bah ah? sudah me remove.

4 minutes ago ·

Sasha Farid

mwaah, i love u.

3 minutes ago ·

Sasha Farid

Sekali di mana kan cakap? Diri kan act cool? Huhh.. Tebuat diri tu ah. Saaandi. 2hari udah ni. Heh. Sampai bilakah baru kan paham.

2 minutes ago ·

Sasha Farid

I do love you too. But you never understand me,selalu buat yang inda urang sukaa. Tebuat me waah,mau jua me paham. Tapi diri... Entah eh,membari malas kan becakap.

53 seconds ago ·

Sasha Farid

siapa kan act cool? bisai kali bah ah peliatan u urg membaca atu. entah sampai bila bila pun inda paham.

19 seconds ago ·

Sasha Farid

HEH.

12 seconds ago ·

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i miss you.

Three passions

i hung up the phone without saying anything, and im speechless. sorry? but ugh, u annoyed me so much sayang. Like u dont have to cakap balik balik about that. il pay the yuran fee's soon. jangantah belanja anything, no worries. Thanks for the money. sigh.. Geography exam is besok and art today was driving me insane. I decided to lukis a pair of sandals instead of lukis pinang or ginger. payah kalii? im having headache during the afternoon class tadi, entah mengapa kah. heh.. i found out that Combined Science nya sanang. i-dont-know-why! Crazy, it is. i so cant wait for the holidays. i want it like now, malas lagi mau sekolah. )))))))))))))))))))))))))):

GREEN?

YADAYADAYADA.

TUESDAY, EVE. =) ANOTHER EXTREMELY BORING DAY. &hey, im just awake from my sleep. sleepy much, yes indeed. i stay up late til 3 lastnight and sigh. ngantuk kaliah for the exam today. we have BM 1 and 2 this morning. followed by art 1 petang ani, 2 til 4.30 which i dont even attend the exam due to my M word. i decided to sleep, im way too exhausted for everything. i didnt reply his last message and terus tidur. well now, im speechless. i was sitting here on the sofa and thinking what to do. i need to study for combined science tommorow. All the 5sc, 5Amazing, 5Brilliant, 5C and the 5Revolution is having exam for now but the other class selalu making noise, so annoying eh -.-' and the bell kept bebunyi saja which awakes me kalau i was sleeping.

and talking about annoying thing, my own boyfriend pun can be one of them sometimes. Like now saja, inda pandai mendangar cakap bah.
Him : Ni me baru kana panggil. Kay.
Me : aga pulang. mengurat
our two last text and now he's gone.
sandi kan? memang pun. ia andang nya suka ________________.

Lav.

Happy 30th Birthday

Kemsiah Rabaha @ Reed's Mom.

May Allah blessed you, Panjang Umur & Di Murahkan Rezeki. =)

Amin.

my time to think, my turn to go.

and hello sunday!

i woke up today, and it was such a blessed. i slept early lastnight, aah. i talk to Reed but sekejap saja. Decided to call him up arah his mom punya phone. Lastly, i was fall asleep. When im awake, i really wanted to pee. LOL. Nini remind me of the jemputan thingy arah Serikandi Cafe. Planned kan bawa maklong but neah. She bring us along ke Bandar saja. So yeah, Asked Balqis and Appy to had their shower. I actualy malas kan breakfast but i got headache. Pasal i skip dinner lastnight. Have to cooked mee goreng jua eventho malas. Maklong sampai fter 30mins, and zoom terus ke bandar. Paklong ada wedding invitation arah IGS hall, i think. Off to giant to had our lunch since all of us starving sudah pun. I Felt macam malas to jalan jalan around the giant, boring bah. Missing him, )): Recieved Reed's message and YAYY! i smile widely. He's at tungku, having ambuyat stuff with his family. Lastly, we're heading to gadong. Kan cuci mata bah. OPPPPPS? heh. and now, we balik sudah. plus gadong boring jua. Lagitia, and ada this new shop caught my dearly attention! Yknow, jual semua Branded Handbag. Like, Gucci and all those Louis Vuitton. So IRRESISTBLE wah sayang. *kirai. hehe. i dont know what time we're going back to kuala belait since Paklong and Muzzakir liat movie. Hopefully inda akhir,

&go take your shovel and bury the castle ")

im awake from my sleep. (: a tiring day, very. i dont know what is my dream about tadi but i remember ada bah mimpi. LOL Nini woke me up saying, chaa. bangun! maghrib eh? and i was like, eh apakan baru jua around 5. im still at maklong's place. will be going home later aroun 8 i think. gottaa do some homework, revising and aah. bermalasan! whee. Reed habis kerja sudah, and think now hes goin to the bank to check his gaji. i miss you sayangggg.

ada wah this girl arah facebook! ia add our facebook. like, strangers jua tu. i dont even know her plus apatah lagi kekasih kuu. inda kenal langsung. sudah tah lawa hantap, seriously. kurus apa. hot chiks lah macam kim kardashian :DD kan kan kan sayang? ahakz. besok saturday, and guess whaaaaaaaat. Exam is just around the corner! GAAAD. belajar geo lagi, apa lagi. semua lagi. ohh, i need to motivate myself this time. mesti belajar, manada lawyer yang kurang IQ eh. hehe

i miss mom already. shes here tadi with babah, but now ia balik again. Appy sikit lagi mau cry cry, hehe. kesian anak manja mama! ni nah aku jadi mama :DD
i just knew 7th March is this sunday. And it is Dad's birthday and also Reed's Mommy! (=

She lives in a fairytales.

im done with everything at last =)! i decided to change my url, and also the skins. the previous one sucks. and ugh, im tired. woke up at 7 today and its friday lav! my boyfriend is off to work. and i miss him, sigh. i havent had my shower due to the M word. had breakfast with appy few hours ago, mom were still at her husband's place. think she's going to kb today. yesterday wasnt a blessed day at all. i screw up at geography subject, i was asked to stand for the whole period just because i cant answer the question. like gad, payah jua geo an /; its not that i didnt revise but, but for now i was revising the weather & climate tapi the teacher soal plate tectonic. inda jua mengana tu. LOL feel like giving up on learning geo tapi entah eh. a friend of mine said i must love the subject to understand all of the contain. i miss history lesson! )):

i just ate half of the food during breaktime. i was still thinkin about the geo thingy. babal much bah. sedihhhhhhhhhh eh! we had sastera after the break and im reading cerpen. boring the subject. like i just diam diam saja, nada mood! heh. duirng english period 8 9 pun i didnt do the work sheet. Ms.Madeliene asked me to but inda jua. malas! i just wanna go home, sleep and talk to him. i checked my phone soon i reached home, i recieved his message and yadayadayada. malas eh rasanya. off to bed & sleep!

Fireflies

basically iv become a lazy one to update, nowadays. dont asked me why, thank you (:

its 23rd, and HAPPY NATIONAL DAY, DEARLY BRUNEI. okay, not to be so patrotic, just pathetic. hehe. NO offence peeps.

i woke up early, sleep doesnt seems so heaven. its hell, and its menstruation week! appy just recoverd from demam, weird like sekejap saja ia demam eh? about to bagi ia makan ubat after 4 hours lastnight which its at 10. but, i fell asleep! ngantuk bah, i drank the ubat and had panadol to kill the pain. sakit much! cant even stand it. i was feeling weak and hungry. headache too! i texted Reed once im awake at 1. subuh kali aku bangun, another less lonely girl. i told him about me falling asleep and YADAYADAYADA.

i miss u, lav.

i havent had breakfast, he usually cooked for me. maggi kari eh? :p im done with jemur baju thingy, and also the school uniform. Luckily its public holiday today! and fyi, i just changed my old chatbox with the new one. kept asking zerah's to do it for me tapi ia malas! hehe. so yeah, at last i did it. which is sanang and now, chatbox ku colouful. inda jua buta mata meliat ia plain ah :D

iv been downloading songs from, Fireflies by Owl City, Love Lockdown By Kanye West (as Reed requested) Linkin Park Digimon songs, HAHA. its Ticktock by Kesha and apa ah. i forgot! LOL.

and im reading Shakespears fairytales book, like siuk the book. Old fairytales pulang but the words lawa. (((: well who doesnt know shakespear kan, his wisdom words and those love thingy.

and got this from the book,

''This violent love has violent endings. So, Love moderetly.."

Wake me up when february ends.

another random wednesday, and Reed is still out of credit. /: haaaih. you dont have idea how much i missed u. PLEASE PLEASE TEXT ME SOON.

i woke up at sharp 5.40, the bed wasnt so comfortable. Little monster nani was next to me. woke her up, and had shower. we had our breakfast and off to school from seria to kb. the morning gaze was thick, and unclear. reached school at 7, and i saw akem. we walk to class and banyak cuurambo around the school! ;DD Cikgu Apandi entered the class for period 1 & 2. I left my exercise book at home. Luckily, he's not mad. The bells ring sharp at 8:30. The class end, and off to art room til 10. I decided to do a new design for my cap kain, but entah lah -.-' Stefenie cakap im getting f.a.t! and i was like. GADYMMMITTT! gila jua. sigh! i didnt eat anything during break tadi. just chips & canned drinks. i cant stop thinkin about my baby. wonder what he's up to right now. i plead (: my classmate distroy my dream up high in the sky and said, 'oi sha, combined science wah. lab! I smiled and pack my stuff, off to physic lab. i dont know why but i like to imagining things that would never happend. LOL :S we studied about acid today. i sit at the very back of the bench, just because i forgot to passed up my exercise yesterday. Mahirah, Asri, Mumtazah and Akem was included too! I cant wait for the clock to strike 11:30. TICK TOCK TICK TOCK! had maths class, and it was just fine. I guess? The teacher put me in the front row. Dadadadadadadarnit.
Went home as usuall, im looking for my phone tapi umi left it in her car. gaaah, badtrip. im being so kusut afraid of he did text me kah or whatever it is. I cant stop murmuring about my phone & lastly, baru tah ada.
i text him, and decided to tiduur. WHEE. im feeling blissful when im sleeping alone. the clock shows 5 when im awake. Feeling effing hungry, gaah. Balqis, Appy and me had our dinner as early as 6. Plus durang ngalih & lapar jua after ugama school. Mom still not around, sigh. Done eating and im doing my school timetable. Terikah school uniform, mine & appy's. Im done with EVERYTHING and yeay. I'l be reading the breaking dawn. ;))

Im just me, so STFU?

Hello tuesday. ;) its been a days. I knowww. Hehehe. Im not that busy but i was lazy to update. Gaaah. Attend the school, &im late. Nothing much today, just cca, geography and sastera. Guess whaaaaaaaat, our class ada spotcheck like tarus tarus. Mahn, its crazy. The teacher was like mencheck hantap, badan pun ia check. Never been like that at stpri and ofcourse it was my first time. Sufi was badtrip todaaay, ia bawa lighter. Whooop. Siapa suruh ;p luckily i didnt bring phone. Teheee. Sastera was totally boring, hikayat again? Lol. Went off to home right away. And i almost forgot i had gyc for maths at 2 til 3 /: a tiring day afterall. umi fetched me sharp at 3.30, and im so effing exhausted. haaaih! i havent had my sleep since tadi, and i just recieved farid's message. I miss you sayang! I was so miserable when you're not around. Please see me soon, Yes? And not to forget, i had a great weekend with him lastweek. went off to tungku, at his granny. makan sutu! whee. the sutu was pretty delicious, too. and now, im craving for it. ;))

Mom off to bandar today, she's been counting days for her wedding. Been busy with all the document, ke makamah also. payah rupa nya kawin ani. banyak urusan. So mom, we pray for your happiness. And sayang, hope you can come during the day. YES? Mi Lav! Im about to have dinner, and terikah baju sekolah after this. il update again, later?

Adakalanya hidup ini terasa amat susah

4 in the evening, he's off to work and im done with my stuff. i fall asleep right after doing my sastera & geography homework. did sasah our baju and jemur jugak :] since mom left us so i as the sister, do all the work. i wont MIND pulang doing those work, nanti in the future pun buat the same thing jua kalau khawin. kan sayang? hehe. YADAYADAYADA! Reed had his lunch tadi and i wasnt aware of his message. nyaman sudah tidur -.-' and im awake around 2. i gave him a missed call tapi no reply. he might be busy, my thoughts murmured. so wont bother about it and decided to log in into facebook. my status caught my dearly attention. he's updating it saying his phone TINGGAL di rumah /: haaaih. boring, baru jua kan ber-dating. i was effing hungry and luckily nini ada beli nasi tadi. so i had lunch with balqis. ia pun alum jua makan. was like kami 2 jea di rumah and the house was freaking sunyi. i decided to had my shower right after that, i smell mooooo! and now, im wearing his seluar bola and t-shirt :D Whee! and suddenly i remember about baju yang i jemur di bawah! asked balqis to bangkit baju, she's being so pemalas eh. sasak ku! lipat baju and terikah baju sekolah appy. pheew, my little brother. Reed didnt allowed me to suruh ia terikah sendiri. masih damit katanya, kalau form 1 baru tah terikah sendiri. and i was like, manasaja tah diri eh ;C so yeah. Balqis form 1, then ia terikah sendiri baju sekolah nya! HAHAHA suka ku. ia pemalas ah ;D i kept asking her to go mandi. mun inda balik2 ku bckp, mana ia mandi tu. biar tia bau masam! BLUEK! and now, iv got nothing much to do lg. liat tv, baca buku and tunggu kekasih i pulang kerja! whuuut, i love you, smexy!

Eff Off FRIDAY.

Im just awake, and hey friday. damn it, why i have to woke up as early as 7? thats ABSURD, totally. macam school day pulang. Earpiece with full volume on my ear, im listening to morning after dark. (: i was way to lazy to woke up, to wash this ugly face and whatever it is. fuuuck, i ran out of cigs. gaaaah. i dont have idea what is my dream lastnight. but dad, i think i dream about you ); my sleep wasnt good as i deserve. im suck at being alone, without his everything. Friday, this is 3 weeks straight. You dig? Why do you hate me this much EH? im out of idea what am i going to do today. staying huum, reading eclipse? I was at page 521, and the lastpage was 629. i so dont wanna finished reading the book. Im afraid to know what's the ending. Will bella become a vampire yet? Hahaha. Obssessedddd! Waie was here since lastnight. His phone kena ambil and his pall mall pun jua kemarin :p kana gantung sekolah ia bt nt sure for how many days. Gaaaaaad, Im hungry /; i think im goin to have my pop mee now. Well, im out lav.

Farid, i like you, dyou like me too?

The fourth day of february whoosh. time flies so fast, indeed. school was just fine. had general assembly for today. some friends were bringing food & drinks, class party today. so we dont have to go to the canteen. $_$ had sastera after break which was totally horrible because i really need to p.e.e :0 and luckily teacher zatul let me out awal. for the first time, i stepped into the girls toilet. LOL. cali! rushed into the class, i so dont wanna missed english class. had vocab test for 1 period. i finished early and passed up the paper. i wanna join the gyc for english, yes sayang? i aim distinction (Y) i went home sharp 12:37, and i dont recieved his message. i was mad pasal lastnight, and refused to eat. nda mauu dinner at all eventho i was starved to death. and err, i really miss you sayang, and please see me very soon. Give me a ring, yes?

On HIATUS!

A super BORING night afterall. so yeah i decided to blogging. i dont have idea where the hell is my boyfriend. im being such a lazy ass lately. i havent panyap my school timetable. and dont even checked up what's for tommorow. actualy i had maths homework -.-' im sort of hungry. he kept me starving. as i said i wont have dinner until i know he's home? im missing 2009, classmates. Hope to see uguys soon! Peejah Sabry, Eyon Soffian, Gim Yussof, Ruby Bee, Zattee Sofri, Deekay Krol, Jushrinee & Dreena Alauddin! Rindu sangat sangat )): sigh. i think im going to off to bed early, tonight. if i stay awake, i would be so kusut and kept giving him zillions missed call. Sayang, can you stop being M.I.A? i hate it. yknow? eff-off, heh. basically, i was thinkin what to do now. i gave gimah a ring, hoping that she would call me! Gim eh? Aku banyak cerita kau tau, si peejah cakap muka mu macam ambuk. and ruby, eyon cakap kau inda rugged. Rugged lg si Mai. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA ;DD im out and im feeling EFFING JOBLESS toodles munchkin! Laaaaaav!

We raise the roof on our dreams when we invoke the fire of our vision.

What a tiring Wednesday pfft. im just done with my lunch. school was disaster. i suck at art. cap kain drives me INSANE it was my first time to do it with those tina and whatsoever. i felt giving up on it. sigh /: had combine science after break. i dont feel like the lesson was fun so, i decided to read eclipse! whee! and maths at period 8,9. our sitting arrangement was change, again. our maths teacher decided to do it group by group. and i sit with stefanie, mahirah with farhana. i think we're having class party besok. dont have idea on what to bring since im totally BROKE plus sayang, u havent gave me money :D i so cant wait for the bell to ring during maths tadi. i cant do my exercise when the class was bising mcm pasar. I HEARD THE BOYS ARE HAVING TOURNAMENT ON PS3 GAMES WITH SIR MEZE THIS FRIDAY AT HIS PLACE! HAHA. gilaak nar. The bell rang soon & im feeling blissful!. cant wait to reach home & check my phone. my 5800 must be missing me! so i received 2 messages!
From : Sweetest Sin. 9:18
Baby,me baru datang keraja ni. Kay. Aher me bangun tadi ahh. Baby later jangan lupa message and lunch ahh. Mwaaaah. Love youu so much! Me cinta youu.. xx
From : Sweetest Sin 12:18
Baby,me baru abis makan ni. Si b antarkan nasi tadi dari rumah. Nyaman ehh masakan si m. Hee. Baby jangan lupa lunch yea? Mwaah. ILoveAndMissYouSoMuch,baby! xx
I SMILE WIDELY AND GIVE HIM CALL. i murmured to him that art was crazy, im so exhausted and YADAYADAYADA. )): can i have my sleep now then?

WHAT I DID FOR LOVE.

Tuesday, happy 20th birthday, zerah shamsul (: and iv been a lazy one to update nowadays. Lol. So, its already february eh? aww. time flies so fast, yes indeed. i had a very great weekend lastweek. spending the saturday with reed. Decided to makan soto with him but anty yati asked to come arah junjongan resort. anty nolly check in sama for fariz birthday party. Reed malas kan datang at first so i just followed as he said. Lastly makan soto lah jua. i really feel like eating soto /: hehe done with dinner like tarus2 he asked me to call fariz, asking masih kah inda durang bbq. luckily the party havent start so yeaay. kami kesana! the place was jauh, and cool too! not all my homies was there. Just us and them. Did stay up there til 12am. And the next day is sunday, he asked me to come along to tungku. At his granny's place, his cousin steven hidayah birthday party. HEHE ;D Reed fetch me lambat and when we sampai, everyone was there. His dad, mom, bang jan with his girlfriend, si pai with his girlfriend and faiq with his injured leg. The foods was super delicious! after makan biasalah, family time talking this and that. Lemme just sit and listen while reading the book. REED was next to me and we had so much fun. i remind him about my art frame! gaah, i asked him to buat for me! whee. it took a long time, very and his mom kept asking. siap tah bang? in a sarcastic way. I just smile and watch he do it. lantak sana lantak sini, at last siap around 6. THANKS LOVE :D he decided to hantar me balik to kb. and just us two. his mom and granny kept reminding, jangan laju. Salam them and we leaved. it took hour to reach kb, and on our way, i fall asleep on his shoulder. I Can feel his kiss upon my forehead. i love you sayang he awake me after 10 mins cause he need to smoke. im wide awake and inda dapat tidur balik. /; so i just layan him, and for the very first time we read our doa during the azan on maghrib prayer. i wished to god, hoping that he would hear me. i wanna be with this guy, next to me for the rest of my life amim. ((: at last we sampai at my very own place, and decide to had our dinner at ayamku. hehe, nice one. spending about 30mins, and went back home. asked him to masuk sekejap while bungsu ada at the living room. mins passed and he tell me he gotta home early cus besok kerja. and i was like, okay. with a sighed il be missing you. My heart murmured. ):
Not to forget, thanks to mommy's reed for the book. WHAT I DID FOR LOVE, sounds pretty title.

i was unable to move until my brain had somewhat unscrambled itself.

SATURDAY gaaaah, and its 2:35. imma off to school early in the morning and im feeling BLISSFUL. i had enough sleep and awake early pun jua. had smoke break before school and eat breakfast. arrived at school around 7 and jaga hari. pfft, ngalih much /: i asked faris to swept the floor jua. Had ussr tadi pagi and im still reading this twilight. Art for 3 period today and will sambung this monday, petang. Sastera and Mib, after break. BORING MUCH. The teacher of bahasa melayu was pround of me for my presentation and he gave me $1. KA-CHING! 12:30, the school bell rang and yeay. Balikkkkkkkkkkkkkkk?

Dear Sayang, Im still SORRY for lastnight. and i miss you pun already )))))):
Please see me soon, yes?
xx, your baby.

I was wishing i could know what were you thinking

quater past 2 im just done showering. Im still arguing with him, which i keep admit it was my fault but then he keep memajal marah and bla bla bla. i know you would read this but sayang, im really sorry? im feeling so sunyi and alone while you're not around /:
i didnt reply his last message i dont know what to say anymore. and now he's off to kerja, later balik around 6. Friday always HATE ME lastweek pun marah jua, this week pun sama jua. gaaaah -.-' This Evening seems so quite, and boring day TOO! Im downloading Let Go by Neyo. Pretty songs indeed The lyrics was fine. The clock on this screen shows its 3:22, Balqis promised me ia balik around 4. so yeah, basically i was waiting for her to reached home. aku meliat siap kah inda the so call project yang di buat nya ani. This 3rd daughter of mom ah, selalu beulah. makin BESAR sudah but still jua macam apa. I was mad at her kemarin, pasal she dont wanna attend the ugama school. I asked anil where's Balqis then ia cakap she's inside the room. and i was like, eh gila jua? Hanger's on my hand and i keep shouting at her saying this and that. Mom keep asking me to stop, and i said eh kan di biarkan kali inda ugama? She didnt answer me and left the room.
i ignore her and she's went to umi tini's place. Just this morning she talk to me.

Balqis : ka, aku kan ke library.
Me : behapa? sama?
Balqis : sama atul, buat project.
Me : bukan kan bedating dating!
Balqis : eh apa pulang. out jua kau
Balqis : kaka inda ke library kah?

i ignore her and sambung tiduuuur. and now, the clock was ticking. and im waiting