i was unable to move until my brain had somewhat unscrambled itself.

SATURDAY gaaaah, and its 2:35. imma off to school early in the morning and im feeling BLISSFUL. i had enough sleep and awake early pun jua. had smoke break before school and eat breakfast. arrived at school around 7 and jaga hari. pfft, ngalih much /: i asked faris to swept the floor jua. Had ussr tadi pagi and im still reading this twilight. Art for 3 period today and will sambung this monday, petang. Sastera and Mib, after break. BORING MUCH. The teacher of bahasa melayu was pround of me for my presentation and he gave me $1. KA-CHING! 12:30, the school bell rang and yeay. Balikkkkkkkkkkkkkkk?

Dear Sayang, Im still SORRY for lastnight. and i miss you pun already )))))):
Please see me soon, yes?
xx, your baby.

I was wishing i could know what were you thinking

quater past 2 im just done showering. Im still arguing with him, which i keep admit it was my fault but then he keep memajal marah and bla bla bla. i know you would read this but sayang, im really sorry? im feeling so sunyi and alone while you're not around /:
i didnt reply his last message i dont know what to say anymore. and now he's off to kerja, later balik around 6. Friday always HATE ME lastweek pun marah jua, this week pun sama jua. gaaaah -.-' This Evening seems so quite, and boring day TOO! Im downloading Let Go by Neyo. Pretty songs indeed The lyrics was fine. The clock on this screen shows its 3:22, Balqis promised me ia balik around 4. so yeah, basically i was waiting for her to reached home. aku meliat siap kah inda the so call project yang di buat nya ani. This 3rd daughter of mom ah, selalu beulah. makin BESAR sudah but still jua macam apa. I was mad at her kemarin, pasal she dont wanna attend the ugama school. I asked anil where's Balqis then ia cakap she's inside the room. and i was like, eh gila jua? Hanger's on my hand and i keep shouting at her saying this and that. Mom keep asking me to stop, and i said eh kan di biarkan kali inda ugama? She didnt answer me and left the room.
i ignore her and she's went to umi tini's place. Just this morning she talk to me.

Balqis : ka, aku kan ke library.
Me : behapa? sama?
Balqis : sama atul, buat project.
Me : bukan kan bedating dating!
Balqis : eh apa pulang. out jua kau
Balqis : kaka inda ke library kah?

i ignore her and sambung tiduuuur. and now, the clock was ticking. and im waiting

Love begins with a smile, grow with a kiss, end with a teardrop

Friday Morning

i woke up late, around 10 i think. i didnt sleep well lastnight. again, im taking the med's to shut this eyes. Im MISSING REED so much ): He's off to kerja today, Recieved his message around quater past 8 and i was still sleeping. I havent had my shower and still with my Pj's. Im being such a lazy one today! I skip dinner lastnight, and im hungry for breakfast today. Balqis off to Library with her friends i was mad at her and bla bla bla. AWAS IF KAU BEDATING DI SANA ATU! Appy didnt attend the Mengaji class today, Malas ia i think. Belle was here, sitting next to me. She's up to something with her mobile phone, as always Have to go to the school besok, dont know what's up with the subject. EXTRACLASS will be started during FEBRUARY. migaaaad!

im at the middle of the twilight book sudah. Enjoying the book much than the movie, Cici was Right!

why do you hate me so much, karma?

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i dont even know what's up with me, myself and around me. i dont feel like blogging but i really need someone to talk to. been arguing with him, due to my own mistakes. im sad, im tired and i dont know what to do. the world's getting colder and im feeling smaller than i ever feel. The world is trying to kill, someone please rescue me. i was stuck in this middle of nowhere, and feeling numb.

KARMA REALLY SHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOT ME.

this is insane, and much crazy than i thought.
FUCK OFF.

stop being mad, yes sexy granny?

Well, 27th January. Happy 63rd Birthday, Nenek Saliha Jaya (:
May God bless you, jangan kan marah marah saja! whee. Been taking this picture hours ago while the kids was around so yeah, shoooooot! smile everyone!

Wednesday, attend the school. Done with the everything and blaaah. exhausted much! Reed started working today, he murmured to me that first day of working is tiring, very. i know. keraja mana jua inda ngalih sayang? Lawyer pun ngalih. and, class was just fine tadi. Many teacher's relief! siuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuk :DD

and hours ago, i recieved this from my super bitchy friends.

aww, i miss kamu even more! )):

BIGGIE THANKS :)))))))))

Not to forget, and thanks to Reed, for this 5800 Xpress Music. Love it sayang! and do take a good care of my e63. yes?

What goes around, must come back around

okay. updates!
sorry didnt make any new post this lately. been busy with this and that. hehe, trying to make things right and at last. everything back to what it used to be. Reed was around, finally. and im not alone anymore. Been spending lastweek weekend's with him, yes. That 's the very best part of my everyday. I Looove you sayang.


so, tuesday wasnt a worst day anymore. attend the school, had cca and geography. teacher hayati checked up my school organizer and saw the notes "geography class, AGAIN" on the 20th January. She kept asking me what do i mean by writing that notes? Err. Another Denial.Met Ruby during breaktime! Blaaah. My form 1 bestfriend. Promise to had our break sama sama besok, yes Ruby? Well had sastera for the last 2 periods. Hikayat Awang Kamarudin was totally gave me DISASTER, when i had to belajar dari bab 1 lagi. migaaaaad?
Went home straight away right after school, thanks to cici for the twilight book. ((((:

Reed had his interview today, and as i expexted. He got the job, CONGRATS baby! Whee. $$KA-CHING!

JANUARY, why do you BITCHING around with me so much?

decided not to attend the school today, dont feel like i want to. im feeling worst, sick and this headache is almost killing me. sleepless night gave me eyebags /: i cant even closed my friggin eyes eventho i drank half bottle of the medicine. and lastly, i end up with tears on my face.. Question runnin thru my mind, why could this such thing happend to me, dear almighty GAD? i prayed for our happiness every single night.. where did i go fucking wrong? blaaaaaaah. it drives me crazy. i skip dinner and lunch, i dont know why. im not feeling hungry, umi kept knocking the door and i ignored. i just wanna be alone! bungsu ewan still asking why im not goin to bandar, and yada yada yada. he's trying to guess with the right one. but still i dont answer him. mom's? she's off to bandar, dont even care about her little daughter who feels like the world is trying to kill. this is my worst day ever, ever.

JANUARY, why do you BITCHING around with me so much?

When god made you, he must be thinkin of me

A guy named Farid, i had a great moment with him for this two years being. and if ever someday il leaved, i would love to tell a thing about him to the new mrs.reed (:

♥ most important dont ever lie to him, never ever do that because he damnly dislikes liar.
♥ dont freak out if he didnt text you or give any missed call, he might be busy with his stuff.
♥ if he ever lied to you, he might not did it on purpose or maybe for some reason he cant explain.
♥ well, dont be mad if he sleeps earlier than you. you shoulda know that sleeping is his hobby.
♥ never delete the logs in your phone or clear all the messages and those calls, he might think youre on contact with other guy.
♥ dont used heavy make up's while goin out to public with him. He totally dont like make up girls. He prefers natural beauty.
♥ used a big handbag when youre out with him cause he might put his carkeys, phone and ciggys inside your bag.
♥ dont complain a thing, he so dont like complainers.
♥ when its late night, he always felt hungry and its typical for him to eat before sleep.
♥ he will asked you to hug him eventho he were sweaty after playing football.
♥ never skip lunch and dinner, he'l be mad.
♥ when he take you to his granny's, dont wear shorts and fit shirts. He got a huge family member there and a man like him, did respect the granny.
♥ if he were scary in silent mode, there must be something wrong.
♥ never do the dont's and do the do's, follow as he said.
♥ text him up before youre off to bed or when u awake, he need to know it.
♥ shared with him when you had problems, he's like all ears to you since he's your boyfriend.
♥ hold his hand at the line of the mall or everywhere, he wants too.
♥ just layan him when he keeps memajal on the same old thing.
♥ dont bother when he keep saying ure babal and badut when he's angry with u.
♥ when he misses you, he just kept his silence. Never think that he didnt.
♥ when he fetch u after sch, make sure he had his lunch first or else he will be mad cause of bein hungry and gotta wait for u lagi.
♥ friends are important for him, and no worries ure still his baby.
♥ u gotta let him know when ure goin out, who ure with and please asked for his permission, yes? (thats why i said he's just like my own father)
♥ dont go online when he's not there, he get jealous easily much and gonna accused u doin this and that behind his back.
♥ when he asked u something, do answer. He hated it when u just kept ur silent.
♥ when he ask u to kiss him in public, and u refused to do so, he will say 'now or never?'
♥ dont wake him up or mengusut while he's sleeping, he surely pissed off berabis!
♥ He's a nice guy, very! His innocent eyes always caught my attention. The way he think which so damn straight, i amazed it. His lips, im addicted to. The way he treat u is just like a paradise. When he smooches u, and whisper 'i love you baby' is a such precious. (((:

♥ so finally, i hope ure much better than me. just dont be like me, i kept mengusut which it makes him to pissed of myself. god bless, and do remember me no matter what.
Regards, SASHA.
Updated on, 30th December 2009. 1 day before 2010 ♥

19th!

Happy 19th Birthday, Sister!

May god bless you with shining destiny and jadi lah anak yang berguna :p

stop being malas and do help mommy.

keep your hands off your bantal busuk, bantal mu bau!

and lastly, i love u. been through this life with u since we were kids, i pray for your health.

lakas2 tah kawin, change this family's life.

sincerely, your cutest sister on earth.

Three passions

Three passions have governed my life: The longings for love, the search for knowledge, And unbearable pity for the suffering.

Love brings ecstasy and relieves loneliness. In the union of love I have seen In a mystic miniature the prefiguring vision Of the heavens that saints and poets have imagined.

With equal passion I have sought knowledge. I have wished to understand the hearts of people.

I have wished to know why the stars shine.
Love and knowledge led upwards to the heavens, But always pity brought me back to earth; Cries of pain reverberated in my heart Of children in famine, of victims tortured And of old people left helpless. I long to alleviate the evil, but I cannot, And I too suffer.


This has been my life; I found it worth living.

fafafaafaffaaaaat?

im getting F-A-T ):
i know. gaaaaaaah!

January 19th.

quite tuesday night, yes indeed. and im still awake. (i know i should be sleeping by now) lol. school today was just fine, did have my wonderful sleep today. woke up around 3 and im like a hungry mouse looking for cheese! am i right? gehehe. spending the evening with few messages thru facebook inbox with reed. he's the best part of my everyday life, very. ♥ so, iv been reading this bliss story book. the cover was super nice, painted with gold colour, a beautiful font of bliss word, followed by lips and the small heartshape. i adore it so much! look like a dairy, and sayang. i want a dairy, please? yes? yes? spending the whole day reading this book. and during lesson in class too! whatever subject i found which is teribbly boring, so i simply took out this book from my drawer and read it! and azim's voice being sarcastic saying, awu shaa. tunduk2 saja meliat buku atu sampai buduh :p kau buduh. hehehe! gotta wake up early besok, and sighs. had geo, again.
il be off to bed soon, yes.and im missing R♥ed's :DD

woke up at 6:00 today. (:
decided to terikah tudong, and
had smuke break. 6:20, balqis said. eh kaa, laju wah. si atul otw sudah and i was like, apaeh? gila kali?
LOL. call umi up to fetch me and just let balqis ke sekolah awal. had lastnight's chipsahoy for breakfast. and a cold tea, very. a nice one indeed. (Y) off to school at sharp 7:20. walk in the class, had library early in the morning. such a lazy monday, pfft. i dont feel like i used to. damn stomache, i curse u. fuck off, its so distracting me during the maths lesson. i hate it, so hate it.asked umi to fetch me, i dont feel like studying, SERIOUSLY. went back home and decide to go along with umi to feed the small little chikky at school. reach home around 12, tryna have my sleep due to my m sickness. 12:30, the house started to be like a giant supermarket. a very annoying door kept bugging me off with its sounds when people tryna pull it. gaaaaaah! cant even closed my eyes, keep telling mommy to tell the homies to stay away from our room. and all i can hear when my lil cousin wana entered, mom said, eh jangantah masuk. bos inda cukup tidur, lalah iaa. *inna a sarcastic way, i knew it. Monday really hates me, foff. i dont even have a little nap dari td, and im feeling fucking exhausted. God, take me -.-'

friday morning, a heavy rainy day. and a cold day, too. oh, hey people (:

woke up early today, macam selalu. recieved fariz's message saying ia di mumong. nyeeeh, cuatah ke pandan. Lol. Well im just done with my breakfast. and had smoke break with waie. im missing reed since lastnight. gilaaak nar, rindu hantap wah /: he's out of credit and same goes to me. kept messaging him telling that i miss him, VERY! and wait! semalam wah. i had a bad dream, really bad. know whaat, i dream that my spongebob atu kana langgar kerita wah! like seriously. buduh, kaling lagi yang melanggar ani. with no mercy ia langgar and tepihit tarus spongebob ku. its just a bantal pulang tp entah, kesian ku wah. nangis ku tarus dalam mimpi ku ato. basar2 lg aku nangis! hahahaha :DD pacah eh! then i told mama about that sekali ketawa iaa. bebanar kesian wah spongebob ah. iatah when im awake, i try to reminisce pasal apa ku mimpi tapi i know pasal spongebob. then baru ku ingaat, sekali terus ku peluk iaa! whee. sayang spongebob! (;

*sigh. besok saturday eh? pfft. ada geo class! the teacher kept saying that aku ani babal. and apa inda ah, aku inda pernah belajar geography bah during form 4. i do history kali? iv told her that and she expect me to belajar sendiri pakai notes bella. sekali, malas tah ku eh. aku pulang belajar sendiri ni ah? heh. kalau mau history arah class 5sc and 5a. cali jua tu nada history arah 5b. -.-' siuk sudah pasal the founding of singapore yang lastyear we belajar time end year of form 4. mijin sudah kan sambung time form 5. ):
so sunday, parid cakap kan ke kb. i hope jadi, yes? i'l asked mama to goreng cucur pisang for uuuuu! sayang mau kan? :DD bah datang sini. ok? ♥

eh ada wah this two school girl, they were kinda bestfriend. sekali this girl was with me during this subject and she cakap cakap that her bestfriend ani jahat mulut, annoying tia and whatsoever. and i was like, oh okay. gilaa jua ah :b iatah sekali during this subject lg, i was with yang her bestfriend ani. asking me, eh apa si atu cakap arah kau td? i said manada. kenapa? kami cerita saja. haha, then she started to cakap eh kau tau ia atu pembual tu eh. suka pacah rhsia orang and bitchy apa. and again, aku ani. ahh, yewaah? gila tu eh. HAHAHAHAAHAHAHA :S sandi ah this two girl. bestfriend taie palat, mengumpat each other. breaktime sama2, duduk pun sama. tapi bodoh. and most funny, this girl cakap banyak tu org inda suka ia, tapi bestfriend nya cakap yang sama jua. padan laah kamu dua, semua orang inda suka. gilaaaaak nar orang kb ani. LOL.

ohh, i is rindu parid. mau jumpa, mau peluk mau cium, mau u and mau semua :p rinduuuuuuu much! please come see your baby soon! *peluuuuuuuk! xx. ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

its so hard to miss someone and not to be able to see them.
even though its what you want more than anything,
This feeling i have is so empty,
i miss him more than anything.
):

BORED? yes, i am. very very very bored. VERY! another random monday night, seems so quite. i was thinkin what to do.

*deep sigh.
wake up at 6, and as usuall. had breakfast and off to school. such a rainy monday morning. reach home around 1. and while waiting for umi, this strange guy were parking his car next to us. scary, yes. he seems acting strange, off his car engine and lower down his seat. phone on his hand. wonder what he's up to. macam perugul! hahaha. :DD i admit, takut lah ku jua. apik kan balik ke sekolah, then i said. eh karang wah, inda kau liat kami dua ganya bawah flat ani.
Luckily umi dataaaaang! naseb naseb naseb.

had lunch after school and sleeeeeeeep. and now, iv got nothing to do. jobless ku, i didnt find something intresting to do. rumah ani inda jua sunyi. tapi boring jua lakat.

tadi aku cubit pipi si lilo. lupa ku ia ada chicken pox. gilaaaaaaaak nar! mun jangkit, inda cali tu. ilang lawa ku. si parid pun na mau mencium.
eh gila kali, boring hantap wah ku. sorang jua lah ku di bilik bungsu, mengenang nasib. nasib yang malang sudah jatuh di timpa tangga.

8:28 PM.
sasha : salam anty, anty di rumah kah ni? Farid mana? Ada ia di rumah?
8:29 PM.
mommy's reed : Nada ia d umah ktanya tdi m strightkn rmbutnya.

8:37 PM.
sasha : anty, ia nada kah di bilik nya? ia gtau aku td ia balik sudah.
8:39 PM.
mommy's reed : Ada ia mulih kjp tdi jln ia lgi.

9:55 PM.
reed : Astah. Di rumah jua me ni. Me wah luan2 tidur,paning wah kepala me. Siapa lagi becakap me bejalan ani?
10:44 PM.
sasha : Ada ia mulih kjp tdi jln ia lgi -si m.
11:OO PM.
reed : Jalan apanya urang tidor. Ia wah di bilik. Nada ada me bejalan balik.

and yada yada yada. (:
im so mad.

sunday morning, cool day. VERY!
woke up at 7, didnt had well sleep. i kept coughing at the middle of the night. fall asleep while waiting reed to reach home. get back home yesterday from school, and he's sleeping at the living room. i feel so damn excited, and hug him. ♥ he's awake and he kiss me, while whisper that he missed me ((((((:
having lunch together, and watch movies. i cant go anywhere far from him. off to kb town around 4, decide to cuci some of our pictures arah my phone. had fun at the skbb playground, as always. everyone's in hunger mode, mom and babahdip choose ayamku, place to eat. YAY :DD sit at separate table. since there's nothing much at kb, so yeah. heading home and im kinda exhausted, too. did exchange the tshirt that im wearing with his tshirt. actualy tshirt that im waering is his tshirt pulang. hehe, and he didnt allowed me to cuci the baju. yes, until this morning, it still have his smell♥ i kept bugging him to buy me a credit lastnight. and he said karangtah and bla bla bla. inda kira jua, i want it know and he still answer me karangg. then i said, EH JANGANTAH! terus naik atas, feeling sad while saying, karitkaritkarit. HAHAHA. few mins after.. Recived this.
Reed : 252627890531. Jangan nyamal yea by?
memang ku senyuuuuuum terus!
Happy ku kaliah ada credit, senang ku message (; sasak wah at first, whatever i want, he always said bah awu. ani semalam cakap, karangtah. apalah, taielah.

Thanks ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
fall asleep, and awake around 11.
Reed : By, me sampai rumah udah ni. Now di bilik. baby behapa tu? if getting worst batuk baby atu baiktah makan ubat yeaa? mesti. anw,i miss you already!

Reply with short message, and he asked me to had my sleep. well i did. nini's voice waking me up. decided to cuci baju this morning. actualy i did mengusut to him about cuci baju sendiri ani. but he said belajar lah cuci sendiri. nyehehe. done cuci baju, and buat art lg. about to watch movie after this. pasal im jobless sudah.

Found this new word today, refers to GREEN.
tetrahydrocannabinol (:

The 2010 kids hit the school. heheh, cute indeed. Arisya just cant keep her hands off her barney!

Back to school, Baby (:

TTTTTTTTTTTUESDAY evening! ((: gaah. i woke up late today and im-so-late-for- S.C.H.O.O.L! haaaah. started at new sch, perdana wazir secondary sch. mommy send me to the registration and waited for mins there. mizi say HI! saw him early in the morning. LOL. cali anak ah. the teacher showed me the 5b class and yeah. feeling kinda awkward jua when i first step into the class. i can see boys is everywhere! -.-' just 9 girls in the class out of 26. the rest is boys. had combined science for the first period. seated next to the new student, too. back to class and had cca. just stayed in class while cerita with stephany, my long lost bestfriend! and with the boys too. i get along better with them. (((: had sastera and bm for the last 4 periods. duh, boring and the weather were getting hot. cant waited for 12:30! Went off to the back of the school with them and gotta wait for umi to fetch me. gaaah. exhausted mouchhhhh! had lunch with the famies while the house were totally bising. tryna have my sleeeep but the sounds of them making noise keep bugging me off. i cant even close my eyes and i pissedddd off! decide to sleep at the living room and yes, i did. slept for few hours and when im awake. its quater past 4. didnt see my phone light blinking so i know i havent recieved any from him. i was wondering and try to give him a missed call. few mins after, he reply with a message.
Reed : Baby. Me baru bangun. Sorry. Me ngantuk sangat2 ah. Baby behapa tuu? Apatah sekulah tadi eh? Ngambang baby kan. Hmmm...
Sasha : oh, its okay. me baru bangun jua, tetidur arah bilik bawah. ani kan naik atas tah ni. sch was just fine. inda pun ngambang.. hee.
:DDDDDDD

i really love u sayang, i wont mengambang as u said. tehehehe! hope to see u very soon! ♥

im just done washing lastnight's dishes, had dinner with reed at granny's place, belait. and err, something different today. The fact is i were at kb when im awake, and Reed is far from me ): He's going home semalam, around 11. im kinda worried cause he was all alone. mommy think that he goona stay until today.. sigh. last place we visited lastnight, pantai berakas with his friends, and had mee goreng for evening at his place. we did cerita cerita while eating atu, biasalah. mengumpat.. lol. aww, gonna missed everything after this. plan to go out with umi today, and i didnt attend the sch registration, just let mommy do it for me. so yeah, started the school week besok, it must felt awkward to have boys in sch. been 4years i didnt see boys at my sch. lol and all i can say is, kb was a boring place afteraaaaaaalllllllll. i miss my boyfriend baaaaaah )))))):

everything.

its 2:49am and im just get back home. been with sayang for 6 hour. and im going back to kb besok. ): so yeah, i would miss every single thing.
♥ il be missing the way he kissed my lips and forehead, thus he will whisper to me 'i love you, baby'
♥ i would miss the time we used to spent together, having lunch and dinner, and also the dvd's.
♥ for sure, il be missing his voice when i kept mengusut and softly he will say, kenapa ni baby?
♥ the laugh, tears and joyful moment iv been spending for the 3 months straight, i surely missed it.
♥ checking my log, messages. only he do that, and after this. he wouldnt do that oftenly.
♥ and only god know how i felt about you sayang.
i kept staring at his face, and his innocent eyes. and i said to myself, boy. i put a high hope on you.. i hold his hand while we were on my way to home. i dont wanna see his face while i almost leave the car, i kissed him and he did hugged me. i cant stand seeing his face, afraid of i would cry /: and all i can hear is his voice saying he loves me. i would teribbly missed you sayang. like, so much. please come see me very often. we dont have to say much about this, we know we had our promises. and lastly, something touches my heart when he stare at me and he say, il be missing your beautiful face ♥

biraaaaaaah.

his message woke me up. i forgot to put my phone away. the vibration gave earthquake to my dream. and when im awake, gaaaaaah. its just 9:22 /= well its 2nd january, and happy birthday bungsu ewan! god bless *hugs.

lastnight was super busy day afterall. had my sleep around 6 in the morning, having conversation with reed after clebrating the new year eve with his so long lost friends at zombie's place. we have bbq and just chilling while waiting for the countdown (; isnt that cool? lol. stay awake til 4 in the morning, and the lovely moon saw us have our say. ♥
reached home around 5, and fall asleep while my msn is still on. soooooory bobo? hehe. mommy's voice gave me disaster. 'eh bgun eh, kan arah tua wanah ni pukul 12' and i was like. shizzz! ngantuk ku wah ni. cuatah mama diam :O kacau wah! siuk sudah orang mimpi kissing sama neyo ♥ nyehaha. i woke up and say aww, this year is the best year ever. and happy new year shaaaaa! mulakan tah hidup baru
:b eh opps. sounds familiar? line si pisang wah tu geng. cheh :O
i was kusut looking for the best outfit to wear, mau jua kan belawa eventho family ganya ada during betunang atu. sorry to mommy, i kept bugging her off to look for baju kurung yang lawa. she pissed off when i kept saying, eh apani baju kurung lama. buruk, macam orang miskin. aku ani orang kaya kaliah (; lastly she answered me, ENTAH KAU EH. hahahahaahaha!
off to tua wanah's place, aka the 414 family's at mulaut. Khairul Sabirin, Her oldest son and the oldest cousin among us, had his engagement day. whee! congrats abang birin ♥ taie mu ah. hahaha. everyone was there, except for anty lela and uncle pian with their family. siuk kami mengumpat sama umi tini, ia tu kejahatan. bila tah kan berubah eh ah? :p staying there until 4, biasalah after the function the apc berkumpul. BEHAPA LG? MENGUMPAT LAAH! iatah nama group durang apc. hahahahaaha. went back home to jerudong and i felt so damn exhausted. tryna have my sleep but i just cant close my damn eyes. so yeah, decided to play badminton with my bestfriend, yang paling ku sayang pasal muka nya lawa macam entah. haha, awu bah. main badminton sama mama. nada terer, tidur lg baik :DDD badtrip hantap, sial tu bunga orchid ah. tegarit wah arah kaki ku, bedarah lg. memang bida bila kaki ku tegarit atu lg. padih hantap rasanya. nasib jua bunga wah, mun inda ku tampaaa eh. sudah tah kaki ku kana ucap bebintang ): paloi! u tu sayang! masuk ke rumah ku ngajut lapas kaki ku tegarit ah, diam lg ku tu. macam ter shocked ku. haaaah, ober. berehat tah ku, mengenang nasib. sudah tah boi ku tidur. inda ia peduli aku, baik pulang couple sama patrick me. dpt jua dgn u tidor :C
had our dinner with anty yati at jsport lastnight, only us three. followed by abang yai and adeeb. babal ku lakat, makai short pants jua eventho kaki ku padih. duh. been there until entah berapa kah. abang yai send us home with his subaru. brooooooom! and all i can remember, pukul 11lalu kali aku sampai rumah. ngantuk ku, tapi meliat dvd ku jua. again, boi ku manada message aku. suka ia wah membiarkan aku. ia suka tidur, entah tidur kah behapa. at last tidur tah ku jua membawa hati yang lara ani aku bangun sudah, tapi kan tidur tah ku balik ni. boring ku.
xx.

2010.

Iv been through enough pains to last me a lifetime. I’ve loved before and got my broken heart. Now, you come into my life saying that you love me as if it was true. My heart wants to believe everything that you say but my logic tells me not to. Yet again, my logic has been ignored and now im so inlove with you…I really don’t know when or how but what I feel for you is true. Im taking a huge risk of getting my heart broken all over again. I don’t know if I can still survive it if I lose you but I am willing to face it. I know I do a lot of stupidities and show you that I don’t care. Right? I think by doing that so im pushing you away. Its like my defence to let you see that I don’t really love you but the fact is I really do.doubts often cloud my mind. How long will you stay? There are things I don’t know about you but you told me your stories.. everything about you seems unreal. you're just like a dream for everything that I want I had found in you but I don’t really know if you're just playing games and pretending just to make me fall deep. What is your purpose? That I don’t know? I love you true so please erase all these doubts that I feel in you.

Happy New Year, 2010 (:

xx.

Happy New Year!

Happy New Year, Love! (: