Fireflies

basically iv become a lazy one to update, nowadays. dont asked me why, thank you (:

its 23rd, and HAPPY NATIONAL DAY, DEARLY BRUNEI. okay, not to be so patrotic, just pathetic. hehe. NO offence peeps.

i woke up early, sleep doesnt seems so heaven. its hell, and its menstruation week! appy just recoverd from demam, weird like sekejap saja ia demam eh? about to bagi ia makan ubat after 4 hours lastnight which its at 10. but, i fell asleep! ngantuk bah, i drank the ubat and had panadol to kill the pain. sakit much! cant even stand it. i was feeling weak and hungry. headache too! i texted Reed once im awake at 1. subuh kali aku bangun, another less lonely girl. i told him about me falling asleep and YADAYADAYADA.

i miss u, lav.

i havent had breakfast, he usually cooked for me. maggi kari eh? :p im done with jemur baju thingy, and also the school uniform. Luckily its public holiday today! and fyi, i just changed my old chatbox with the new one. kept asking zerah's to do it for me tapi ia malas! hehe. so yeah, at last i did it. which is sanang and now, chatbox ku colouful. inda jua buta mata meliat ia plain ah :D

iv been downloading songs from, Fireflies by Owl City, Love Lockdown By Kanye West (as Reed requested) Linkin Park Digimon songs, HAHA. its Ticktock by Kesha and apa ah. i forgot! LOL.

and im reading Shakespears fairytales book, like siuk the book. Old fairytales pulang but the words lawa. (((: well who doesnt know shakespear kan, his wisdom words and those love thingy.

and got this from the book,

''This violent love has violent endings. So, Love moderetly.."

Wake me up when february ends.

another random wednesday, and Reed is still out of credit. /: haaaih. you dont have idea how much i missed u. PLEASE PLEASE TEXT ME SOON.

i woke up at sharp 5.40, the bed wasnt so comfortable. Little monster nani was next to me. woke her up, and had shower. we had our breakfast and off to school from seria to kb. the morning gaze was thick, and unclear. reached school at 7, and i saw akem. we walk to class and banyak cuurambo around the school! ;DD Cikgu Apandi entered the class for period 1 & 2. I left my exercise book at home. Luckily, he's not mad. The bells ring sharp at 8:30. The class end, and off to art room til 10. I decided to do a new design for my cap kain, but entah lah -.-' Stefenie cakap im getting f.a.t! and i was like. GADYMMMITTT! gila jua. sigh! i didnt eat anything during break tadi. just chips & canned drinks. i cant stop thinkin about my baby. wonder what he's up to right now. i plead (: my classmate distroy my dream up high in the sky and said, 'oi sha, combined science wah. lab! I smiled and pack my stuff, off to physic lab. i dont know why but i like to imagining things that would never happend. LOL :S we studied about acid today. i sit at the very back of the bench, just because i forgot to passed up my exercise yesterday. Mahirah, Asri, Mumtazah and Akem was included too! I cant wait for the clock to strike 11:30. TICK TOCK TICK TOCK! had maths class, and it was just fine. I guess? The teacher put me in the front row. Dadadadadadadarnit.
Went home as usuall, im looking for my phone tapi umi left it in her car. gaaah, badtrip. im being so kusut afraid of he did text me kah or whatever it is. I cant stop murmuring about my phone & lastly, baru tah ada.
i text him, and decided to tiduur. WHEE. im feeling blissful when im sleeping alone. the clock shows 5 when im awake. Feeling effing hungry, gaah. Balqis, Appy and me had our dinner as early as 6. Plus durang ngalih & lapar jua after ugama school. Mom still not around, sigh. Done eating and im doing my school timetable. Terikah school uniform, mine & appy's. Im done with EVERYTHING and yeay. I'l be reading the breaking dawn. ;))

Im just me, so STFU?

Hello tuesday. ;) its been a days. I knowww. Hehehe. Im not that busy but i was lazy to update. Gaaah. Attend the school, &im late. Nothing much today, just cca, geography and sastera. Guess whaaaaaaaat, our class ada spotcheck like tarus tarus. Mahn, its crazy. The teacher was like mencheck hantap, badan pun ia check. Never been like that at stpri and ofcourse it was my first time. Sufi was badtrip todaaay, ia bawa lighter. Whooop. Siapa suruh ;p luckily i didnt bring phone. Teheee. Sastera was totally boring, hikayat again? Lol. Went off to home right away. And i almost forgot i had gyc for maths at 2 til 3 /: a tiring day afterall. umi fetched me sharp at 3.30, and im so effing exhausted. haaaih! i havent had my sleep since tadi, and i just recieved farid's message. I miss you sayang! I was so miserable when you're not around. Please see me soon, Yes? And not to forget, i had a great weekend with him lastweek. went off to tungku, at his granny. makan sutu! whee. the sutu was pretty delicious, too. and now, im craving for it. ;))

Mom off to bandar today, she's been counting days for her wedding. Been busy with all the document, ke makamah also. payah rupa nya kawin ani. banyak urusan. So mom, we pray for your happiness. And sayang, hope you can come during the day. YES? Mi Lav! Im about to have dinner, and terikah baju sekolah after this. il update again, later?

Adakalanya hidup ini terasa amat susah

4 in the evening, he's off to work and im done with my stuff. i fall asleep right after doing my sastera & geography homework. did sasah our baju and jemur jugak :] since mom left us so i as the sister, do all the work. i wont MIND pulang doing those work, nanti in the future pun buat the same thing jua kalau khawin. kan sayang? hehe. YADAYADAYADA! Reed had his lunch tadi and i wasnt aware of his message. nyaman sudah tidur -.-' and im awake around 2. i gave him a missed call tapi no reply. he might be busy, my thoughts murmured. so wont bother about it and decided to log in into facebook. my status caught my dearly attention. he's updating it saying his phone TINGGAL di rumah /: haaaih. boring, baru jua kan ber-dating. i was effing hungry and luckily nini ada beli nasi tadi. so i had lunch with balqis. ia pun alum jua makan. was like kami 2 jea di rumah and the house was freaking sunyi. i decided to had my shower right after that, i smell mooooo! and now, im wearing his seluar bola and t-shirt :D Whee! and suddenly i remember about baju yang i jemur di bawah! asked balqis to bangkit baju, she's being so pemalas eh. sasak ku! lipat baju and terikah baju sekolah appy. pheew, my little brother. Reed didnt allowed me to suruh ia terikah sendiri. masih damit katanya, kalau form 1 baru tah terikah sendiri. and i was like, manasaja tah diri eh ;C so yeah. Balqis form 1, then ia terikah sendiri baju sekolah nya! HAHAHA suka ku. ia pemalas ah ;D i kept asking her to go mandi. mun inda balik2 ku bckp, mana ia mandi tu. biar tia bau masam! BLUEK! and now, iv got nothing much to do lg. liat tv, baca buku and tunggu kekasih i pulang kerja! whuuut, i love you, smexy!

Eff Off FRIDAY.

Im just awake, and hey friday. damn it, why i have to woke up as early as 7? thats ABSURD, totally. macam school day pulang. Earpiece with full volume on my ear, im listening to morning after dark. (: i was way to lazy to woke up, to wash this ugly face and whatever it is. fuuuck, i ran out of cigs. gaaaah. i dont have idea what is my dream lastnight. but dad, i think i dream about you ); my sleep wasnt good as i deserve. im suck at being alone, without his everything. Friday, this is 3 weeks straight. You dig? Why do you hate me this much EH? im out of idea what am i going to do today. staying huum, reading eclipse? I was at page 521, and the lastpage was 629. i so dont wanna finished reading the book. Im afraid to know what's the ending. Will bella become a vampire yet? Hahaha. Obssessedddd! Waie was here since lastnight. His phone kena ambil and his pall mall pun jua kemarin :p kana gantung sekolah ia bt nt sure for how many days. Gaaaaaad, Im hungry /; i think im goin to have my pop mee now. Well, im out lav.

Farid, i like you, dyou like me too?

The fourth day of february whoosh. time flies so fast, indeed. school was just fine. had general assembly for today. some friends were bringing food & drinks, class party today. so we dont have to go to the canteen. $_$ had sastera after break which was totally horrible because i really need to p.e.e :0 and luckily teacher zatul let me out awal. for the first time, i stepped into the girls toilet. LOL. cali! rushed into the class, i so dont wanna missed english class. had vocab test for 1 period. i finished early and passed up the paper. i wanna join the gyc for english, yes sayang? i aim distinction (Y) i went home sharp 12:37, and i dont recieved his message. i was mad pasal lastnight, and refused to eat. nda mauu dinner at all eventho i was starved to death. and err, i really miss you sayang, and please see me very soon. Give me a ring, yes?

On HIATUS!

A super BORING night afterall. so yeah i decided to blogging. i dont have idea where the hell is my boyfriend. im being such a lazy ass lately. i havent panyap my school timetable. and dont even checked up what's for tommorow. actualy i had maths homework -.-' im sort of hungry. he kept me starving. as i said i wont have dinner until i know he's home? im missing 2009, classmates. Hope to see uguys soon! Peejah Sabry, Eyon Soffian, Gim Yussof, Ruby Bee, Zattee Sofri, Deekay Krol, Jushrinee & Dreena Alauddin! Rindu sangat sangat )): sigh. i think im going to off to bed early, tonight. if i stay awake, i would be so kusut and kept giving him zillions missed call. Sayang, can you stop being M.I.A? i hate it. yknow? eff-off, heh. basically, i was thinkin what to do now. i gave gimah a ring, hoping that she would call me! Gim eh? Aku banyak cerita kau tau, si peejah cakap muka mu macam ambuk. and ruby, eyon cakap kau inda rugged. Rugged lg si Mai. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA ;DD im out and im feeling EFFING JOBLESS toodles munchkin! Laaaaaav!

We raise the roof on our dreams when we invoke the fire of our vision.

What a tiring Wednesday pfft. im just done with my lunch. school was disaster. i suck at art. cap kain drives me INSANE it was my first time to do it with those tina and whatsoever. i felt giving up on it. sigh /: had combine science after break. i dont feel like the lesson was fun so, i decided to read eclipse! whee! and maths at period 8,9. our sitting arrangement was change, again. our maths teacher decided to do it group by group. and i sit with stefanie, mahirah with farhana. i think we're having class party besok. dont have idea on what to bring since im totally BROKE plus sayang, u havent gave me money :D i so cant wait for the bell to ring during maths tadi. i cant do my exercise when the class was bising mcm pasar. I HEARD THE BOYS ARE HAVING TOURNAMENT ON PS3 GAMES WITH SIR MEZE THIS FRIDAY AT HIS PLACE! HAHA. gilaak nar. The bell rang soon & im feeling blissful!. cant wait to reach home & check my phone. my 5800 must be missing me! so i received 2 messages!
From : Sweetest Sin. 9:18
Baby,me baru datang keraja ni. Kay. Aher me bangun tadi ahh. Baby later jangan lupa message and lunch ahh. Mwaaaah. Love youu so much! Me cinta youu.. xx
From : Sweetest Sin 12:18
Baby,me baru abis makan ni. Si b antarkan nasi tadi dari rumah. Nyaman ehh masakan si m. Hee. Baby jangan lupa lunch yea? Mwaah. ILoveAndMissYouSoMuch,baby! xx
I SMILE WIDELY AND GIVE HIM CALL. i murmured to him that art was crazy, im so exhausted and YADAYADAYADA. )): can i have my sleep now then?

WHAT I DID FOR LOVE.

Tuesday, happy 20th birthday, zerah shamsul (: and iv been a lazy one to update nowadays. Lol. So, its already february eh? aww. time flies so fast, yes indeed. i had a very great weekend lastweek. spending the saturday with reed. Decided to makan soto with him but anty yati asked to come arah junjongan resort. anty nolly check in sama for fariz birthday party. Reed malas kan datang at first so i just followed as he said. Lastly makan soto lah jua. i really feel like eating soto /: hehe done with dinner like tarus2 he asked me to call fariz, asking masih kah inda durang bbq. luckily the party havent start so yeaay. kami kesana! the place was jauh, and cool too! not all my homies was there. Just us and them. Did stay up there til 12am. And the next day is sunday, he asked me to come along to tungku. At his granny's place, his cousin steven hidayah birthday party. HEHE ;D Reed fetch me lambat and when we sampai, everyone was there. His dad, mom, bang jan with his girlfriend, si pai with his girlfriend and faiq with his injured leg. The foods was super delicious! after makan biasalah, family time talking this and that. Lemme just sit and listen while reading the book. REED was next to me and we had so much fun. i remind him about my art frame! gaah, i asked him to buat for me! whee. it took a long time, very and his mom kept asking. siap tah bang? in a sarcastic way. I just smile and watch he do it. lantak sana lantak sini, at last siap around 6. THANKS LOVE :D he decided to hantar me balik to kb. and just us two. his mom and granny kept reminding, jangan laju. Salam them and we leaved. it took hour to reach kb, and on our way, i fall asleep on his shoulder. I Can feel his kiss upon my forehead. i love you sayang he awake me after 10 mins cause he need to smoke. im wide awake and inda dapat tidur balik. /; so i just layan him, and for the very first time we read our doa during the azan on maghrib prayer. i wished to god, hoping that he would hear me. i wanna be with this guy, next to me for the rest of my life amim. ((: at last we sampai at my very own place, and decide to had our dinner at ayamku. hehe, nice one. spending about 30mins, and went back home. asked him to masuk sekejap while bungsu ada at the living room. mins passed and he tell me he gotta home early cus besok kerja. and i was like, okay. with a sighed il be missing you. My heart murmured. ):
Not to forget, thanks to mommy's reed for the book. WHAT I DID FOR LOVE, sounds pretty title.